*Tashera Simmons, DMX’s soon-to-be-ex-wife, is not keeping quiet about her failed marriage and the pending memoir that will accompany it.

In a new interview with VIBE.com, Tashera elaborates on DMX’s infidelity, in addition to her thoughts on once trying to save him.

She says he had four children out of wedlock that she didn’t know about.
Once the mothers of those children began contacting her, she felt enough was enough.

On his cheating:

“I just felt like with the drugs, that in itself is mentally draining. I felt like since we’ve been together for so long I didn’t want to give up on him.

But when he started coming up with all these kids I was like I can’t because for one, I have kids and I definitely don’t want my daughter to think that that’s okay. The drugs already was too much but then the cheating, I didn’t even know he had time to do that. I mean, I never put it past him; I never say never but without protection? There was just a lot of unprotected sex and I have kids to take care of. I started thinking about all of that and I was like, I can’t do it anymore. I felt he took me for granted.”

On believing she could help him:

“I really felt like I could help him. But I know now that that’s not something I can do. I had to give it to God. It’s not like he was doing it purposely. He was just living like a rock star. The person I met was never like that. He was always loyal to what he believed in and even before we had kids, he used to tell me ? because his mom, it’s him plus three other girls and they all have different fathers. When we got together one of the things he said was, ‘I don’t want to have kids by different mothers, I want to keep all my kids with one woman.’ But once he got in this business it all went left. He just got really caught up.”

On the yes-men who enabled him:

“It’s funny because X has a lot of trust issues so I used to always be with him a lot because he knew that if he couldn’t trust anybody else, that he could trust me. The bigger he got he started being around so many yes-men and I started looking like I was wrong because I was the only one telling him the truth. It was like, I watched my best friend lose his soul. He gained the whole world but at the same time lost his soul.”

Rumor has it Aliya S. King’s book Platinum was loosely based on Tashera.